Week 13 Inspiration comes in quiet places

Hi, 

Wednesday Bro. Erickson helped me with my tree. I went into a lady I found last week and after 2.5 hours we finally found her parents. I helped a guy with the basics and shadowed a sister missionary & staff. :) It was fun to see them excited when they saw relatives in front of them and tell us about them. 

Thursday the session was very small. I'm getting close to remembering most so that's exciting. Thankful my gma g attended with me. 

Friday staff invited me to do things and I tried to do things on my own. Loved the talk "A still, small voice and a throbbing heart", 2005. It's a new favorite. I feel very inadequate with research. When listening to the talk I got an impression that part of the history center is not the work fully, but being a friend to some and listening to them. I also heard some say they love "I stand all amazed" which has been a favorite for the last few years. One thing I have been struggling with is when someone asks for help I doubt and don't believe I can. But 95% of the time it IS something I can do. I just need to have faith in myself and Him and know that if it needs happen, it will! Some people are terrifying to me, but I'm thankful that I'm being pushed to work with people a little more. I did a few things I struggled with at first and I didn't want to but I told them what I struggled with and they helped me. I did better than last time. 

Saturday went good volunteering. I met the laundry head person. She's been out of town on vacation. I have been trying to be more outgoing but I don't think it's working. When meeting with the sisters they decided to start it out by singing child hymn #172, when listening I got an impression that since proselytizing missionaries get to contact home now weekly, because of that they don't send out as many letters. I felt that's one of the reasons I got called as a service missionary is because I'm already living at home so there are people I know (I have no idea who) but there are some that need those weekly letters. So that helped me a lot! 

In sacrament they talked about how we feel we don't do as good as we should be and how we fall short. The end of this week has been really hard (not sure why) and feel like I'm a failure if it wasn't for the people telling me to help them. But that's where Christ comes in. He knows what we need, and will have those needs met. I wouldn't have done as nearly much as I did if they didn't push me to do the things I did. I'm thankful and trying to remember "don't beat yourself up". I also taught primary. For it just being me pretty much, it was one of my best lessons for how I do. I know Christ is helping me because of all the help I get. 

Monday we sorted meats and I got put by myself. 1.5 hrs later a group came and they put 2 girls with me, Lucy (8) and Katherine (10). Thankful for their help. It went better then the last few weeks. 

Sister Jessica Gill 

Thanks for all the support! Make sure you put "Reply Jessica" and not everyone. Thanks for taking the time to read! 

Also, I tried to get a conference talk picture to finish but hasn't yet so I'll try to send it later today. :)